what is the life i chose?
who is the friend i want to have?
my whole life i smile and pose
to make them happy, i make them laugh
and i can only express my despair through prose.

i only wanted someone to love me
but all i got was misery and pain.
i pretend to be happy and laugh with glee
i try to love all and try not to blame
but my selflessness screams and turns to flee.
my face is streaked with tears
after all, there's only so much i can take.
he believes love is one of my fears
little does he know my fear is all fake
and he is the person i hold most dear.

he thinks i am vain and don't know my place
that i don't know what love is, nor what it can do.
he doesn't see that my love for him shows plainly on my face.
i could wait my whole life to hear him say, "i love you too",
he doesn't understand how he makes my heart race
and the way each moment with him seems completely new.

the only thing he sees in me is a best friend
someone to fall on when he's in times of need.
to him i'm existing only for him, living to no end
someone who advises him, there only to lead,
sometimes to come to with a broken heart to mend.

i can't make him happy no matter how hard i try,
and it makes me sad to know i'm not the one for him.
it leaves me in anguish and everyday makes me cry,
and he doesn't know that my life is so dim
because whenever he sees me my tears seem to dry.

the one he loves most is someone i envy,
i wish i could be her for just a few days.
in front of her eyes is a golden opportunity
but instead she decides single is how she'll stay.

if only i were the one he were thinking of,
but like always and how he says, i'm being selfish.
i only wish i could die and live above...
where everyone is granted whatever they wish
even the love of someone who doesn't care you exist.

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posted - 10:40 PM